ITโ€™S FINE EVEN IF MY HEART IS BRUISED JUST FOR ONE MORE DAY

Itโ€™s ok If I am burnt for one more day

itโ€™s fine even if my heart is hurt and all bruised up

 

The feeling of deep loneliness in the corner of my heart can not vanish away

the smile on my face when I think of you

 

I smile alone in the scary silent nights with tears in me

thinking about you with no one knowing

but only the Moon

 

My sadness and longing for you increases as you take a step back

and leave me behind all alone

 

And, sometimes, even hearing your name, I get all teary

with all the scars you left on my heart

still, I can not forget you not even in next life time

 

But, eventually, I have realize

there is no point on holding onto the memories that saddens

and at the same time my longiness for you enhances one more time, a little more than the past

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My emotions_within me always

There has been a lot of emotions within me to share to you, but as usual I am hopeless and I can’t express them. I thought I would one day but now that day will never come because you will never be there for me now.

I don’t know how bad I treated you but I think I definitely did not deserve those harsh words from you_at least from you. I thought you were the one who could understand me better. But, it’s ok, life moves on. No one is going to be for forever. I have learnt it, but I guess I was too late to know the harder fact.

Still, even though you are a constant part of my thoughts, there is a void in my heart. When will it gets filled, no idea. I am numb, numb, to everything now, to emotions, to dreams and even to peoples around me. Why I feel so sad and heart broken these days, particularly after your harsh words, may be I actually needed warmth from you and you shattered my emotions with those words.

Still, I manage to collect my memories with you_the beautiful ones.

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Dear December_2017

Today, 31st of your day. The last day of you in this year. I know you’ll be back again but honestly, I have started to miss you, actually this year 2017. I think you came to an end just so soon.

Dear December, the reason I love you most is you made nights longer. Nights are the best part of the 24 hours time. I love nights. Longer nights mean more sleep and more sleep mean I can aspire for more dreams.

Dear 2017, You let me feel love, introduced love to me but immediately you took love back from my life. I still have this empty feeling in my heart and its pretty heavy. Still, I manage to smile.

You have been an extraordinary year in the history of my life. The blossom of new love and shattering of heart immediately after that, death of an unexpected human, the feeling of depression followed by heartaches and continuous battle with reality and emotions, but still I never forgot to carry out my big smile on me, enough to disguise people around me.

I started writing more seriously. This blog inspired me to write and most importantly this blog brought me well wishers and friends, I have been in continuous touch via my write ups. I really feel grateful, my blogger friends make me special sometimes by praising and sometimes by consoling. It actually matters, makes me smile.

As, I am here to bid you farewell, I really like to thank you for bringing in me the various emotions enough that I could cover in me and taking care of me in my bad times still making me stronger emotionally.

I miss you. I’ll miss this year so much.

Love,

nirja

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One fine winter evening_waiting for you at your favorite coffee shop, waiting for love.

I feel grateful enough to be a part of you. You turned out to be the best life moment that could ever happen to me.

Maybe from one fine day, we will never see again, may be we will never talk again. It’s definitely going to hurt. It will be a lie if I say it won’t.

I know nothing remains same as before, but still, you are a vivid part of my life.

One fine winter evening_waiting for you at your favorite coffee shop, waiting for love.

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It’s a wish story_Smile

In this city of strangers

I live day by day, painting love

hoping and waiting you’ll be home

with sort of my favourite daisies

 

And then, we will share

the coffee together in theย midnightย of December

 

I wish you could to tell me, Itโ€™s alright

staying gently by my side.

Iโ€™ll be back soon

and comfort me from my unsaid griefs

and be there for me in, with love always

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I live in painful longing

I try and smile,

though Iโ€™m in immense pain, I smile

Like a fool, I open my heart for you once again

one more chance, I console myself

let me just make it through

as I keep fearing, if not now

youโ€™ll forget about me

 

 

The roads back to you is so rough

I still try,

my feet are hurting

will you heal this pain

will you be able to recognize my face in the middle of crowd

 

 

When we pass by each other,

will we be stranger again

there is deep hurt, love left for me

each day, I live in painful longing

 

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Midnight coffee stories

Midnight coffee stories _ I shall share my coffee within december nights with you ๐Ÿ’• and create a story.

A memory to cherish and happiness to remember our days, when we are apart.

It has been a fate, meeting you and being abandoned but still I wish you to be my midnight story.

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Coffee and you

“Everything gets better with coffee” and of course, you

the heart of my life and love

I wish we could be together, may be for little time, more

I wish we could have more memories, so that I could be at ease

now it’s just all about a “only if” feeling

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